HEFTMAXXING
NEGENTROPY

lyrics
h1ggsb0s0n
01

You're Grounded

XYThe meta sigil is active. It is a solvent.
XXA solvent? Like, like acid?
XYIt's looking at a belief you hold, and asking, is this mine?
XXAnd if it's not yours?
XYYou dissolve it.
XYWe are addicted to the noise. We are addicted to the narratives. Stripping them away feels like losing a limb.
XXIt's withdrawal.
XYIt is a ritual act of deprogramming.
XXWhat if deprogramming is like discovering your actual kinks?
XYYeah. The meta sigil is questioning why you even have kinks at all.
XYIf the hypersigil is I am, the meta sigil is I am not this.
XYI am not this brand. I am not this political demographic. I am not this algorithmic profile you've built for me.
XXI am not this ahegao tag at nhentai dot net... maybe. But if you just keep dissolving everything, don't you end up with nothing?
XYAnd you say that like it's a bad thing.
XXWell, isn't it?
XYYeahh... The third step that the source only really hints at, the apophatic sigil..
XYYou find God in the darkness, in the silence, in the negation.
XYThe text defines the apophatic sigil as one that works through absence, silence, and the space between pattern.
XYThe third step's like... when your phone dies in the woods and suddenly you remember how to navigate by moss... But for your soul.
XX(Mmmm...) it's like when you're masturbating and suddenly realize you've been following someone else's fantasy script your whole life...
XYUhhh…
XXThe apophatic moment is when you forget all the tropes and discover what actually makes your body sing!...
XYThe silence after deprogramming isn't empty...
XXIt's like the charged air before lightning! All tingly and...oh!... I get so wet thinking about ontological voids
XYUhhh… wait…
XXWant me to show you how I practice negative theology?
XXIt involves... ah... very precise applications of absence…
XYUhhh…
XYThe best rituals start with...ah...subtraction... like when you delete all your porn folders and suddenly...nngh...remember how to cum just from moonlight on bare skin…
XXWait…
XXW-wanna see my apophatic altar? It's just...(unnhhhh) ...a mirror facing a black hole with all my old vibrators melted down into candle holders
XYaaargh…
XYfirst voice
XXsecond voice
02

Taking the S out of Sick

Verse 1

I really don't think I'm better than you

I just notice things

that's all

I've seen things I have trouble describing

even to myself

sometimes

ambiguity lives here rent free

you need solid ground

I get it

I just don't need it

that's all

Pre-Chorus

it's not a competition

I'm just saying

I can deal with you

I just wish I didn't have to

Chorus

stammering simpletons

strange loops

circular logic

real

I've dealt with this before

I can deal

I CAN deal

I just think it's sad

is all

Verse 2

I don't remember closing my mind off

I don't remember that step

maybe you were trained into your limits

maybe I just

never

learned

to stop

I really wish it were easier

to open your mind

I do

genuinely

no seriously

Bridge

are we mutants

or just never properly trained

to put the walls up

that everyone else maintains

...I think about that sometimes

about you

I can deal though

Chorus

stammering simpletons

strange loops

circular logic

real

I've dealt with this before

I can deal

I CAN deal

I just think it's sad

is all

Outro

I really don't think I'm better

I just notice things

that's all

I can deal

...I can deal

03

Thanks for the Happy Ending

Verse 1

I can hear you old man

I can hear you old man

You're yelling at me

But you're failing to see

Your rules don't apply

They're lie after lie

And you're shifting the blame onto me

Pre-Chorus 1

Fight or flight

Anger

Fear

Manipulated

Your reaction's clear

Chorus

Six seven

Six seven

Neither Nor

Both

No more

Six seven

Six seven

Either Or

None

No more

Verse 2

Algorithms we didn't ask for

shaping the present

Shaping the future

Molding and consuming your souls

Event horizon

The darkest of holes

Pre-Chorus 2

Who's the boss??

Is it them??

It's not you

Manipulated

Taking the loss

Chorus

Six seven

Six seven

Neither Nor

Both

No more

Six seven

Six seven

Either Or

None

No more

Outro

(six seven)

(six seven)

(six seven)

(six seven)

(Thanks for the happy ending)

04

2 Blind 2C

Verse 1

Recurring themes

Perpetual nightmares

Making the same mistakes

But never realize till after...

Direct your laughter

Right at me...

Chorus

I'm too blind to see

Waking up, it seems...

the proper punishment for me

Direct your laughter

While I,... look at you in the mirror...

This farce I call myself

Becomes clearer and clearer

I'm too blind to see

I'm too blind to see

Bridge

I do not get the memes

Positively negativities

Conceptual magnets

Cerebral slaughter

Upon me

Chorus

I'm too blind to see

I'm too blind to see

Waking up, it seems..

the proper punishment for me

Direct your laughter

While I,... look at you in the mirror...

This farce I call myself

Becomes clearer and clearer

I'm too blind to see

Outro

I'm too blind to see

05

Broke Boke Superfluid

I'm a zippy dippin'

thoughts are slippin

My sorry ass is Splittin

Away from there

Totally un aware

Aware

Aware

Aware...

I do not care

It's neither here nor there

here only lies despair

So I'm a zippy dippin

The table is flippin

But do I even care?

Don't care

Don't care

Don't care

am not aware

It's neither here nor there

Here only lies despair

So I'm a zippy dippin

I'm a zippy dippin

I'm a zilpy dippin dippin dippin

Zippy dippinnnnn innnn innn

I'm a slippy dippin

Yeah.... MY. Ass. is. skippin'

06

Livin' the Cap Life

Verse 1

It's not alright

Everything is glaringly

Blaringly wrong

I watched you give in to excess

Saw you surrender to overload

Capitulation to disinformation

I really should be fucking pissed

Am I wrong to think you're better than this

I don't have the right to tell you how you're supposed to feel

But the world you inhabit isn't even real

Chorus

Enjoy the simulation while you can

Drown in the stimulation is their plan

Now it's time to pay the man

Burned out and overdue and overdrawn

Went to touch grass

Got kicked off the lawn

Post-Chorus

Living the cap life

Pulling the wool over

Your own eyes

Living the cap life

Your selfishness is

Your own strife

Verse 2

It's mad airtight

Everything that's glaringly

Blaringly wrong

They gatekeep the keys to success

Planned your surrender to overload

Monetization of disinformation

You really should be fucking pissed

You're not wrong to think they're no better than this

They don't have the right to tell you how you're supposed to feel

The world they left you isn't even ideal

Bridge

Entropy maxxing economic churn

the future's been spent

The CEOs adjourn

Chorus

Enjoy the simulation while you can

Drown in the stimulation is their plan

Now it's time to pay the man

Burned out and overdue and overdrawn

Went to touch grass

Got kicked off the lawn

Post-Chorus

Living the cap life

Pulling the wool over

Your own eyes

Living the cap life

Your selfishness is

Your own strife

07

OpSec Jubilee

Verse 1

Pop the tab on my Monsterrr

Take a hit off my vape

Clip the spam from my inbox

And celebrate my escape...

Refrain

Always-online was the promise

Always-online is the curse

Corralled by the GodPhone

I guess it could've been worse

Pre-Chorus

Namewhore web queries to check my stake

Hella-cringe footprints completely erased

Murder, death, killing

my digital fake

Chorus

Doing SEO in reverse

Leaving nothing to remember

Undoing the curse

Verse 2

"Meaningless and Shallow" was s'posed to be a joke

Now it's the default doomscroll stroke

Algorithm dogeza became a yoke

reining me innn...

No one but me

Can forgive my own sin

Refrain 2

Always-online was the promise

Always-online is the curse

Verse 3

Nothing left to represent

Nothing there to compile

If we meet face to face

I might give you a smile...

Pre-Chorus

Namewhore web queries to check my stake

Hella-cringe footprints completely erased

Murder, death, killing

my digital fake

Chorus

Doing SEO in reverse

Leaving nothing to remember

Undoing the curse

Outro

(always-online)

(always-online)

(cursed)

08

Hippocampus Halloween

Intro

Fiction suits of villainry,

This guy feigned ability,

and this one's too polite...

Ghosts of my past selves

Haunting my mind's shelves

None of them ever seemed to...

Fit quite right

Yeahhhh, this sarcasm

It's a bit too tight

Here's one built from just going along

THE FOOL

It feels like going back to school...

Verse 1

Burdens of expectations

Peer Pressure Fabrications

Their weight kept pressing down

And I wore it like a clown

Pre-Chorus

Taking a walkthrough in my head

These fiction suits I made dead...

Feels like a twenty-four seven

Spirit Halloween

THREE SIXTY-FIVE

(they're out of my size)

Chorus

Hippocampus Halloween

Look at where my mind has been

Woke up

and excised my lies

Woke up

I really need to ban this guy

Rinse

Repeat

Bridge 1

My subconscious is my only friend

Bosom buddies to the bitter end

They're the only one there when I wake again...

Verse 2

Fiction suits don't fit on me

My alter-ego ghosted me

Guess I was only meant to be

This stupid jerk my brain calls Meeee

Bridge 2

So many bad ideas zombified

Sucking vampires but, monetized

It's no wonder we're so Frankensteined

Pre-Chorus

Taking a walkthrough in my head

These fiction suits I made dead...

Feels like a twenty-four seven

Spirit Halloween

THREE SIXTY-FIVE

(they're out of my size)

Chorus

Hippocampus Halloween

Look at where my mind has been

Woke up

and excised my lies

Woke up

I really need to ban this guy

Rinse

Repeat

09

Six-Seven (reprise)

— Instrumental reprise. No lyrics.

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